a letter to, im kind of sick of letters.

im losing my self confidence.
its slippng away slowly, i have based my life on the fact that i belive in me.
and now i am starting to lose even that.
and i dont know what to do about that.
b/c that is so utterly important.
i can feel it leaving, like a bird.
croaching down unfurling its wings.
oh look., there it goes.
and if it leaves me ill pick up the peices.
and try again.

a letter to society

you suck.
because i am 20 pounds underweight
yet i feel 500 pounds overweight.
i am skinny.
i feel fat.
you, my dear friend, society, suck balls.
i dont relize how much you control my life, my words, my every move.
but you do.
you make things cool and uncool.
and i hate you for that.
tight clothes and 00 sized jeans dont work for me.
bagggy loose clothing, does.
lets go with that one.
thankks.

a letter to my life.

im in love with you.
i forget sometimes.
but, i love you. i do.
i promise!
you are a mystery, but you really arent as scary in the end.
you really are great.
i have plans for you. big plans
so get ready, love.
you will be hated, loved, trampled, questioned, put through hell.
but in the end, i love you still <3

a letter to you.

fuck you.
ha! i have wanted to say that for longer than you could have imagined.
fuck you for making me feel guilty.
fuck you for making me feel incompetent.
fuck you for making me never being happy for more than two seconds.
fuck you for wanting more and more until i have nothing more to give.
and then fuck you for being unhappy with that.
fuck you for not holding yourself too the impossibly high standards you hold me to.
fuck you for always being unhappy.
FUCK YOU.
fuck you.
fuck you.