a letter to God.

hey. 

ive got a pretty pertinant question. 

why?

i remember when i was a little girl i imagined all the questions i would ask you when i got to heaven. stupid questions. 

and now i have so many more seious questions. 

so, Lord, why? 

"we'll fall off our beds and won't hurt our heads."

another letter to you.

hey you. 

i cant get you outta my head. 

i like you more than i should. and i am really hopping you like me back, 

yesterday i could imagine you in my living room as i introduced you to my parents. 

it was scary. 

and amazing. 

exhilarating. 

as you stood there in all your glory leaning on the sides of your feet. 

i really want you to be that guy. 

sorry if this sounds cliche. 

:) 

a letter to you in heaven.

you died last night. at 11 o clock. 

it hasnt hit me yet, death normally takes a while to sink in. 

its pretty scary to think that werent that much older than my mom. 

and your daughter is that much older than me. its pretty scary to think that you couldve been my mom. 

im so sorry and sad that you died. 

and why im glad you're out of your pain. i just wish you never had that pain. 

cancer is an awful, awful, evil disease. 

i hate it. 

again, im sorry. 

another letter to a few of you,

2 of you: im sick of your shit, although it comes in diffrent forms, its still shit. and im still sick of it. You both need to get over yourselves. 

Im leaving you both in my dust. 

Im sor....no, nevermind im really not. 

1 of you: I like you so much, i really hope your in my near future, im gonna pluck up my coarage someday soon, 

(mabye not, but id like to) 

im blessed.

a letter to a cancer riden mother

hospice. im so sorry. everybody knows hospice is another way to wait for death. you fought for 16 years. and cancer, that damn monster is killing you. 

im so sorry. your just as old as my mom. it could be my mom in your shoes. 

that scares me shitless. 

im so sorry.