a letter to you: you were never the person you were supposed to be.

sometimes, i get so angry at you. I really don't want to be angry at you, but i am. You're supposed to be there, your supposed to love me and tell me you do. You dont. You have been depresed for so long, and you cant pull yourself out of it, and it is affecting everyone you love. Sometimes, I find myself surfing that wave, i feel like my board is about to tip and im going to fall into the ocean, and then maybe ill be like you, and drown in the depression, but then i remember what your doing to your loved ones, how you act, what you've failed to do, and i realize, i cant do that, because thats not fair, and i cant be mad at you, and thne do it myself. You are a horrible role model, and you've failed at all the jobs your supposed to do. You dont understand how much i resent you, because youve left a gap in my life no one else can fill. you need to suck it up, start paddaling, and start living. listen, be slow to anger, and live your life teaching lessons, with words and with actions.