a letter to him.

im going to see you soon.
and i havent seen you in a long time
but im really excitied.
there are so many things i like about you.
you....
are one of the awesomest amazingest people i know,
i hope one day we can be...
but for know; i pine after you in scilence.
somedays i wonder if you notice. is it obvious? my affection, i mean.
the other day, i was going to tell you. i wrote you a message on facebook.
but my finger slipped and i dont press send.
i couldnt. i wouldnt. im sorry. im not coragous. im sorry your shy.
because of our flaws....we may never be together
but i have learned to never discount chance...nor humans.
maybe someday....tommorow. the next day next month or year
maybe someday when we meet by chance on the street many years from now.
maybe never. whether we end up together or apart, it will be for the better.
i know. still i hope us being together is for the better. because you are amazing.
what would you say if you knew this was about you? what would you do?
would you be disgusted? happy? would you ask me out? would you not talk to me for the next 4 months and 19 days? i dunno....
still, i like you alot.